lesson learned?

it has come to my attention that i have a blog. and while i have previously written an average of three times per year, my life is way more interesting than that, and i owe it to myself to blog.

…fade in:

hypothetically, i have recently become single. this provides me with a perspective that i am not prepared for. but, as i have learned in the last 26 years of my life, this is where life teaches [the hypothetical] me the best lessons.

at a certain point in this hypothetical situation, i had believed in a forever kind of thing. and when you get that wrong… well, my suggestion would be to not get that wrong. hypothetically.

in real life it’s not a sob story, it’s the culmination of a thousand conversations, a couple of love stories, an amazing adventure and the only reasonable end that anyone could ask for.
but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.

it’s no one’s fault and no matter how many times i try to put my finger on one thing that may have driven it to the brink, there isn’t one. it’s us. and it’s not us being us. and it’s real and sane and the right thing to do and it blows. hard.

i’m a tough cookie, i can handle this shit. I know that people get over and give up so much more and it makes me feel like a pansy sometimes because, hypothetically, i am still heartbroken.

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we maintain balance, poise and a sense of security only as we  move forward.
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so i guess this is me discovering me.

hypothetically.